Kink magazines

I was wandering through the polyamory tag on Tumblr and someone brought up magazines for polyamory and that got me thinking about kink mags. I mean I know there is Elust which is a kink digest online and I came across an online Dungeon Quarterly once. But what about actually glossy hold-in-your-hands magazine? I mean someone must put out some independent magazine at least once or something. I just wish I knew where to find that. It would be nice to have something to read about kink that isn’t another fiction book or a non-fiction how-to guide.

The Freedom To Bite Your Tongue

I know we all know about freedom of speech and how great (or not so great) it can be. But what about the freedom to bite your tongue? What I mean by that is there are times when, for whatever reason it is not a good idea to voice your opinions. There are some people who say fuck it and speak their mind anyway (and more power to them). But what about those of us  who, by voicing contrary opinions, stand to loose say, family respect or something else important? I am one of those people who is very opinionated yet chose to bite my tongue rather than say what I am thinking.

There are several reasons for this, the main one being for me that I don’t want to be cut off from my family. I hold a lot of opinions that my family does not. Thoughts about gay marriage, lgbtqa things, and alternative lifestyles in general that include kink and polyamory both of which are huge parts of my life. My family, however much I love them, are all very conservative which means that I never get to voice my different opinions without either being chewed out or asked questions about my reasoning that are traps for me to out myself. 

When I met Sir for the first time I told him my opinions on things up front (at the time I was bisexual and monogamous and semi-pagan) which he appreciated I think as he is very outspoken himself. To me it is easier to tell everything I believe or stand for to someone who, I guess, I already have the potential to loose (through break-ups, fights, or relationship issues). Telling these opinions to my family however is like stepping out in a field where you know there are landmines. It could be easier if you didn’t know how a family member feels about certain issues but unfortunately for me I have heard all the possible landmines every time my family gets together for dinner. 

I hate conflict. I mean I hate it so much that even the thought of hypothetical conflicts makes me panic. And don’t even get me started on actual conflicts that I can see from a mile away. Those send me into a panic attack that, by the time the conflict actually comes up I’ve spiraled into an anxiety attack and am in the bathroom with the door locked. That is another reason I take the biting my tongue approach to issues that deal with things that are major parts of my life (though thank goodness that kink rarely gets bashed or brought up in conversation…poly doesn’t either so that’s a respite of sorts).

So what is the point of this post? Well, unfortunately lovely reader there is no point to it really. I was just sitting in church tonight and listening to other people’s opinions about things and realized that I hardly ever voice my own to anyone besides Sir and doll and that is what sparked this post.  Let me sign off by saying thanks for reading my ramblings and I hope something in here made you think.

Pallets: Furniture with BDSM possibilities.

Pallets: Furniture with BDSM possibilities..

Submissive journal

I love to write. I have always been a huge reader and a lover of writing my thoughts out about books I read. I even write in books I read if I come across notable passages or agree with something a character said. Why shouldn’t my submissiveness be any different?

I have decided to buy a journal (I have too few of them) and write in it each day at least concerning my submission. This blog is used for that but also houses my thoughts on everything from books to being an introvert to my daily life. I know from reading other blogs that journals are kept for a number of reasons. I think for submissives keeping a journal is a daily tangible reminder of your submission that you can carry with you day in and day out.

Of course there is also the views of your Dom to consider when keeping a sub journal. My Sir, when I asked his thoughts on the idea, said that it was my something to do and I could put in what I wanted. I know that some want you to put in rules/essays on certain topics/daily log of activities/whatever but for those of you who keep a submissive/slave journal what are some things you put in it?